and so she screamed out to the air that never listened
"When I finally mean something, I'll show you worth. Until you come in only my direction I'll consider this betrayal."

The wind never answered.

(i had a lot more written with this, but it was all complete crap besides this little bit. Why do I always have a girl speaking to something that isn't "real"?)

I have my hair in a fine mess
and a boot on each foot.
My eyes are glittering to perfection
and i have a hood to keep away the rain.
I'll put a spring in my step
as we walk along the river and stare at the lights of the sky line across the way.
Just say my name and we can go wherever we want to.
We don't have to talk about the hard times or the past.
We'll just comment on a passing fad and be done with it.
We'll laugh away whatever we forgot to be thinking of,
and that will be the beginning and the end.
When the night comes to a close we'll part our ways and maybe forget these things ever happened.
Maybe tomorrow we will hate one another.
Right now,
just take me to a new place with some good conversation.
Or walk with me, silently, as we go.
Laughing and cry in all the same sentence.
You just have to ask my name,
and have the desire to get away for awhile...

Sleeping beauty,
in all her exquisite beauty,
and her simple minded fantasies,
never found the one thing she was hoping for:
A tragedy.

I want to paint a picture.
I'll make my eyes hollow
and the boys will be of a perfect sea blue.
He'll stare at the snow
and I will try to call out.
He'll fall in love with the snow
and I'll fall in love with the ocean...

Tomorrow is what I expect.
A smile and your nothingness.
I'm expecting you to move
me -- this useless being.
Are you brave enough for even that?

The sun and the stars are moving.
You're walking along this path.
I'm promised so many more promises.
You're taking advantage of all my smiles.

Hold onto nightlights.
Dance even when I'm looking.
I feel nothing when I'm with you.
I'm numbed to the center -- You're unrleasing.

You're everything, I've made you that way.
You'll make me happy.
I'm promised one more cycle to wax and wane.
Yet so much could happen when we're not of ourselves...

There really is no "I love you."
Love was never a reality.
It's never what I meant or thought about.
It's all part of the fairytale.
That gruesome little story.

I cherish you.
I'm here for you.
I need you more then you need me.
I'm all you ask for.
I'm existing for you.
I'm never leaving till you beckon me away.
I'm pathetic for a reason.
You're all I have left of me.

So if you want to kill me,
go on and be my guest.
I'll get the answers to all my questions.
"Have you cried yet?"

There's no worth in second chances.
There's no worth in all these words.
I'm sitting on a new bed.
I'm saying hello to a new world.

When you leave me here I wonder if you'll know.
You changed a part of me, and i don't know why.
I don't think I'll forget,
but I know you will.

Did you ever hear that story?
That gruesome little tale
of when a girl died
just to prove no reality existed in love...

So you slammed me into the wall.
Meaning nothing and everything for someone to find me.
For me to fend for myself.
I know I'm going to miss you,
but that's only for now.

You can mean everything, did you know?
You break me and keep from from a rational.
I guess I'm looking fr a comfort you can never supply.
Yes, comfort.
It's all I'm asking for.

So the smoke is over powering my eyes.
I'm fearing for my emotional attachment.
You can take pride and write it on the walls, but it wont mean anything anymore.
I thought I had found love,
but this was only and explanation...

So I met you in the back of the darkened room.
Exhcnaging laughter and kisses like we had all of them to spare.
I kept saying "No, we've gone too far."
With your reassurance that I should never care.
I told you I loved him, but when did that ever matter?

I wanted, more then anything, to be missed.
You told me I was worth the agony.
Then I spoke of how much of a fool you could be.
All thing working against this would be the end, can't you see?
You made it all so simple to forget he never cared.

"I'm hiding all the meanings from you." I whispered while lost in your arms.
"You have no clue, no idea, no meaning of what I lost."
You smiled and just kissed away all the fear I had.
"I'm just like you. This fear comes with a cost."
This is when I knew...

Well I felt this was something you could appriciate.
You and I, the silly fools who wanted to attempt fate.
So what if this loyalty has gotten me nothing.
It's all in that song they continue to sing
of love lost and found again.
We're burning away the layers before they have the chance to blend...

i really have to write something happy >_> And this should possibly be longer, but suddenly all my ideas went poof. Dammit all.